I realize what made me feel so set off yesterday after my first day of work at a temp. job in Monroe where I am supposed to be proofreading, but what really happened is I proofread and then proceeded to do a lot of confusing shit because no one knows what anyone else is doing. Seriously, no one knows. This is why they need temps, because they have completely screwed the pooch and need to clean it up.

If I feel like I am out of control of a situation, I panic. If I panic, I begin to act irrationally. Happens every time. Happened in Korea. Happened yesterday. Meditation helps. Or beer and baseball.

Today, more control. I just need to wait until the first paycheck comes.